Lyric

Morning train, the screen's pale glow

Pretending not to care, but I already know

Friends' big dreams, another happy report

I'm smiling back, but my breath is coming short

Type "That's amazing," staring at the screen

Delete it all before it can be seen

I don't hate you, I really don't, it's true

That’s why this feeling is so hard to push through

Juvenile Envy Syndrome

All the sparkles are stabbing through my heart

"Congratulations" stays stuck inside my throat

While my fake smiles are tearing me apart

Juvenile Envy Syndrome

I know I should look away, I really do

But my fingers open the app on their own

I’m still addicted, I can’t stop following you

Don’t look

I'm fine

On the way home, my breath is getting shallow

The city lights are too bright for me to follow

Nothing happened, everything is just fine

But a noisy static is ringing in this chest of mine

"I'll get there someday," I try to tell a lie

"Not in a million years," my inner ghosts reply

Don't leave me behind, please don't let me go

I can't say it, I can't let it show

Juvenile Envy Syndrome

A name of a disease I can’t tell anyone

I’ve gotten so good at acting like I’m okay

And that’s the scariest thing I’ve ever done

Juvenile Envy Syndrome

It’s not that I’m trying to win a race

I just don’t want to disappear from this world

I’m still stuck here, in this digital space

I wanted to be someone who could say "Congrats"

I wanted a night where I could truly be glad

I know I shouldn't look, I know that for sure

But I keep searching for something I can't endure

Juvenile Envy Syndrome

All the sparkles are stabbing through my heart

I want to celebrate, but I’m falling apart

I can’t stay kind, I’m losing my mind

But I can’t hate you, no matter what I find

I can't hate you, I can't hate you... I'm breaking down

Juvenile Envy Syndrome

I just want to be myself, after all

It’s not over yet, I won’t let myself fall

Hey

Will my tomorrow

Ever start to shine?