Lyric

I’m fine—

No I’m not

I’m up, I’m down, I don’t stop

Woke up like I’m bulletproof, sunlight on my skin

Ten minutes later I’m a ghost, don’t know where I’ve been

Coffee in my hand, but my hands still shake

Smiling for the room like it’s a picture I can fake

My heart’s on a ride with no seatbelt on

I laugh too loud then the lights go wrong

Tell me “breathe,” but the air feels thin

I spin, I spin—

’Cause I’m on an emotional rollercoaster

High, then I crash, getting closer

To the edge of “I’m okay” and “don’t come near”

I want you, then I disappear

I’m a firework turned to cold smoke

Say “I’m good” but it’s a bad joke

Love me gentle when I’m like this, please

I’m an emotional rollercoaster—

Don’t let go of me

Up, down, up, down

I’m lost in the crowd

Say it again, say it again—

“I’m safe right now”

Text you “I’m fine” with a perfect dot, like a grown-up would

Then I stare at the screen like it’s bleeding, like it never could

I’m jealous of the calm in your voice, how you don’t break

I’m proud of me for standing still, then I start to shake

My chest is a storm in designer clothes

Lip gloss on, but nobody knows

I’m “so strong,” yeah I play that role

But I’m not, I’m not—

’Cause I’m on an emotional rollercoaster

High, then I crash, getting closer

To the edge of “I’m okay” and “don’t come near”

I want you, then I disappear

I’m a firework turned to cold smoke

Say “I’m good” but it’s a bad joke

Love me gentle when I’m like this, please

I’m an emotional rollercoaster—

Don’t let go of me

Hold me like you’re holding a secret

If I fall, don’t call it weakness

I’m not trying to be dramatic

I’m just… human with bad traffic

In my head—red lights, dead ends

I’m sorry, I’m sorry… then I do it again

’Cause I’m on an emotional rollercoaster

High, then I crash, getting closer

To the edge of “I’m okay” and “don’t come near”

I want you, then I disappear

I’m a firework turned to cold smoke

Say “I’m good” but it’s a bad joke

Love me gentle when I’m like this, please

I’m an emotional rollercoaster—

Don’t let go… don’t let go…

I’m fine—

No I’m not

But stay…

Just stay