The first time was small
A nod across the room
I felt my body leave
And called it getting through
No one saw the bargain
No one heard the cost
I kept the peace around me
And misplaced what I lost
I Said Yes to Survive
With my no behind my teeth
I handed them the answer
And hid the rest of me
At work, at home, in love
The lesson wore one face
Be easy, be useful
Do not take up space
Every quiet agreement
Made the room feel safe
But safety has a hunger
It slowly learns your name
I gave away the doorway
Then stood outside my life
Smiling through the damage
Like silence made it right
Then one small no
Moved under my skin
Not loud
Not brave
Just still living
Tonight I do not answer
Before I know my will
The room can keep its anger
I am allowed to be still
- Lyricist
Ydessa Vorn
- Composer
Caius Ellmere
- Producer
Sevrin Aulgrave
- Vocals
Ydessa Vorn
Listen to I Said Yes to Survive by Ydessa Vorn
Streaming / Download
- 1
The Help I Never Asked For
Ydessa Vorn
- 2
My Mouth Closed First
Ydessa Vorn
- 3
A Chair for What I Didn't Say
Ydessa Vorn
- 4
I Was Hurt, Quietly
Ydessa Vorn
- 5
The Apology Stayed in My Throat
Ydessa Vorn
- 6
Mother, I Learned Silence
Ydessa Vorn
- 7
The Anger Was Still Holy
Ydessa Vorn
- 8
Your Name Had an Echo
Ydessa Vorn
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I Said Yes to Survive
Ydessa Vorn
- 10
Where the Unsaid Gathered
Ydessa Vorn
- 11
I Almost Heard Myself
Ydessa Vorn
In this first album, words that could never be voiced throughout life are transformed one by one into quiet songs.
Wrapped in piano, strings, choir-like voices, and deep reverberation, the album portrays them as emotions left behind in silence.
