Lyric

Terrified of being hated

I locked myself away with empty hands

If I’m only meant to hurt someone

If I’m destined to be left alone again—

Then solitude felt easier

Far lighter than pretending I was fine

But once I felt the warmth

Of someone breathing close to me

This world became too cold

To survive alone anymore

What am I supposed to do now?

Even “help me” hides behind my trembling voice

Trapped inside this silent room

Crushed beneath the weight I never speak

I thought surrendering would make it easier—

Maybe disappearing would bring relief…

But somehow the words escape my lips:

“I don’t want to fade away,”

Though I hate the sound of weakness

“I’m afraid to lose this life,”

Though I whisper it through shaking hands

Caught between wanting to stay and wanting to run

The ringing in my ears won’t stop

Afraid to hear the truth from others

I closed my door, refusing every hand

If I’m only meant for heartbreak

If everything ends in lonely silence—

Then life alone felt safer

No need to fear the sudden fall

But once I brushed against

A formless kindness someone held—

This world of grief grew heavier

Than I could carry by myself

How am I supposed to stand?

Even “save me” disappears into the dark

Trapped inside this silent room

Crushed beneath the weight I never speak

I thought surrendering would make it easier—

Maybe disappearing would bring relief…

But somehow the words escape my lips:

“I don’t want to fade away,”

Though I hate the sound of weakness

“I’m afraid to lose this life,”

Though I whisper it through shaking hands

Wanting to stay, wanting to run

Echoes screaming through the silence