Lyric

In sleepless nights, only my phone’s glow

Others’ happiness feels too bright to hold

Smiles I wear are cutting me inside

“I’m a good kid”—I’m tired of the lie

I’m smiling though I don’t want to smile

Crushed beneath someone else’s dream for a while

I want to run but there’s nowhere to hide

Trapped in a shape that’s broken inside

A silent scream tearing through my chest

Saying “I’m fine” with a practiced breath

The real me’s here, but hidden away

And no one can find me today

Left behind in days that keep passing me by

The truth I can’t tell starts to rot inside

I want to cry but I fake being strong

This mask keeps grinding my heart for so long

Acting okay every single day

Swallowing words I can’t let escape

Is it okay if I break, if I’m weak?

Even though I’ve been hiding for weeks

I hide my broken self behind a smile

“I’m okay” is the lie I’ve learned to style

But my true tears are still right here

No one can see them clear

Tell me, will there be a day I can love who I am?

The darker the night, the stronger the will to stand

It trembles, it trembles, it turns into tears

Someone, please tell me here

I want to scream but no sound comes out

Alone in the dark, holding my breath down

Still, a small hope flickers inside

Even with this pain, I want to survive

What I want to break is this weakness in me

What I want to guard is this heart I still keep

I’m full of contradictions, but even so

I still… I still want to roar