theory of relativity

Every day I struggle with the inevitable fear and anxiety that comes with living my life, but in order to understand and love myself, I want to transform the emotions that arise into songs. When creating music, I believe that "I can't beat famous songs of the same type." This doesn't mean that I can just create something better than that. If there is a pioneer, any song I create in an attempt to surpass them will be turned away as "the same type." Pioneering a new genre is not easy; in fact, it is a huge risk and an impossible task. Those who interpret these things strangely will end up living a life of deviance, and I believe I am one of those people, so I thought it would be best to express these hopeless thoughts as they are.