Lyric

I used to be above her

So I let her feel my gentle side

But now I look around, and it’s all her

No one calls my name tonight

When did it happen? When did she pass me by?

I can’t accept it

Yet my heart feels rough inside

Since when am I below?

I can’t fake a smile to celebrate

Frustration, shame

These black emotions swallow me whole

The girl I once looked down on

Now blinds me with her glow

“I see you trying,” I used to say

Though deep down I’d quietly laugh

Now every memory of her smile

Feels like it crushes my chest

I was here first, so why’d she get ahead?

Talent? Effort?

I don’t want to hear those words

Since when am I the one looked down on?

Hiding tears behind a fake cheer

Frustrated, miserable

This black heart devours me

I can’t admit it, but I can’t run away

She shines too brightly for me to ignore

My color slowly fades into the dark

The shadows burn my throat

Still, I can’t tell anyone

This black heart keeps squeezing me tight

I want to overtake her again

Fuel this rage inside

Even if I stumble, even if I spin in vain

I won’t stop now

I will never say I lost

Not to her, not to anyone

Burned by her light

I find myself looking down on someone else

It’s the only way to survive

Or else I’d fall apart