Lyric

I hope you don’t forgive me

Not all the way

Leave a little

Of me there

Something you still

Can’t explain

When somebody asks

Why it ended

I know how that sounds

I know

But if you forgive me

Too easily

Then maybe

I didn’t leave much behind

I hope you don’t forgive me

I’m the one

Who said it first

“Maybe we should

Stop doing this.”

You didn’t argue

You just looked down

For a second

And said

“Okay.”

I hated

How quiet that was

I almost took it back

Instead I said

“You know

This hasn’t been good.”

You nodded

Like I hadn’t spent

The last few months

Asking you to come closer

Then getting angry

When you did

You asked me once

“What do you want

From me?”

I said

“I don’t know.”

That was true

It still is

I hope you don’t forgive me

I know

I should want that

I should want you

To wake up one day

And not feel

Anything at all

But I don’t

I want you

To still look away

When somebody

Says my name

I want there

To still be something

You can’t quite

Laugh about yet

I hate that I want that

I hope you don’t forgive me

I ask

“Do you think

You’ll hate me?”

You look up

“No.”

“Not even

For a while?”

You almost smile

“I don’t think so.”

That hurts

More than it should

So I ask

The worse question

“Will you forgive me?”

You take your time

Then—

“Probably.”

I look away

You say

“Isn’t that

What you want?”

I don’t answer

Because I can already see it

You talking about me

Without your voice

Changing

Me becoming

Someone you used

To know

I hope you don’t forgive me

Not yet

Not enough

To say my name

And feel nothing

I want you happy

I mean that

I just don’t want

Everything we were

To stop hurting

Before I’m ready

You’d think

I’d want that for you

Tonight

I don’t

I hope you don’t forgive me

You stand up

I say

“Wait.”

You stop

I don’t know

What comes next

So I say

“I’m sorry.”

You nod

“I know.”

“That’s it?”

“What else

Do you want me to say?”

I open my mouth

Nothing comes out

Then you say

“I don’t hate you.”

I look at you

“Don’t.”

“What?”

“Don’t be nice

Right now.”

You go quiet

I hope you don’t forgive me

Not tonight

I want you angry

I want you

To miss me badly

I want you

To hate how quiet

The room gets

After I leave

I want tomorrow

To hurt a little

I want my name

To still make you

Stop for a second

Not forever

I know

Just don’t make me

Easy to get over

Not yet

I hope you don’t forgive me

[Outro]

You reach

For the door

I say your name

You turn around

For a second

I almost ask you

To stay

Instead—

“Goodnight.”

You look at me

“Goodnight.”

The door closes

And I hate

That you were gentle

All the way through