I can’t resolve
Why it’s so cold
I can’t resolve
Why I feel so cold
Numb, though I should have all the reasons
To feel fine
All it's blurred
Feels like nothing could ever
Make me want it all again
Why?
Why?
Why it’s so cold?
(I can't find the way out)
I don’t know who I am
(I can’t find the way out)
Should have found my way out
Should have known what I’m about
(Who am I)
Should have done everything right
Should have known that I’d be fine
Should have seen the brighter sides
Never cared for what’s not right
(Empty inside)
Can't find way out
Numb, though I should have all the reasons
To feel fine
All it's blurred
Feels like nothing could ever
Make me want it all again
Why?
Why it’s so cold?
I can’t resolve
Why it’s so cold
I can’t resolve
Why I feel so cold
Should have found my way out
Should have known what I’m about, yeah
Should have done everything right
Should have known that I’d be fine, yeah
Should have seen the brighter sides
Never cared for what’s not right
I can’t resolve
Why it’s so cold
I can’t resolve
Why I feel so cold
Who am I?
(I can't find the way out)
Nothing feels right
Empty inside
Can't find the way out
Numb, though I should have all the reasons
To feel fine
All it's blurred
Feels like nothing could ever
Make me want it all again
Why?
I want to feel something
I want to find myself again
I want to break out of this
I want to enjoy the light of day
I want to feel something
I want to find myself again
Numb, though I should have all the reasons
To feel fine
All it's blurred
(Will I feel again?)
Feels like nothing could ever
Make me want it all again
Why?
Will I feel again?
Will I find out who I am?
Will I feel again?
Why it's so cold?
- Lyricist
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- Vocals
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- Background Vocals
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- Songwriter
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Listen to Anhedonia by MARU
Streaming / Download
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Action
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Chatter
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- 3
Fake
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Anhedonia
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Fear
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My Guardian
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Questions
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Actions lie
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Silence
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Manifesto
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An album tracing a journey through pain, loss, fear, and emotional numbness. Through moments of paralysis, reflection, and confrontation, the record explores the process of rediscovering oneself and finding meaning in authenticity, action, and hope.
Artist Profile
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MARU (Martyna Gruszka) is a Tokyo-based Polish artist who values facing and understanding oneself through music. Creating with an appreciation for authenticity, faith, and the process of growth itself, inspired by personal emotions, memories, and experiences. Through music, seeking to bring comfort, connection, and hope to those struggling with loneliness, anxiety, or loss, while encouraging others to embrace their own journey of self-discovery.
