Lyric

Your coffee cup is still beside the sink

I leave it there longer than I should

The hallway keeps the shape of where you stood

And every quiet gives me time to think

I found your hair tie underneath the bed

A little black loop holding back the truth

I keep inventing reasons to text you

Then put the phone face down instead

I tell my friends I’m getting by

But your name changes the subject in my mind

I’m learning how to miss you without calling

How to sleep on my side of the bed

I can carry every word you left me

But I can’t make them mean something else

You’re gone, and I’m still turning toward you

Like my body hasn’t heard the news

I’m learning how to lose you slowly

While every part of me still chooses you

The landlord fixed the lock we never used

Your picture’s in a box beneath the stairs

I thought that moving things would move the hurt

But grief knows every room I walk into

I heard our favorite song inside a store

And counted all the seconds till it passed

A stranger laughed the way you used to laugh

I had to step outside the door

I tell myself that time is on my side

Then wake up reaching for you in the night

I’m learning how to miss you without calling

How to sleep on my side of the bed

I can carry every word you left me

But I can’t make them mean something else

You’re gone, and I’m still turning toward you

Like my body hasn’t heard the news

I’m learning how to lose you slowly

While every part of me still chooses you

If loving you was something I could finish

I’d put it in a drawer and close the door

But some goodbyes keep breathing after leaving

And I don’t know what I’m healing for

I’m learning how to miss you without calling

How to say your name and let it pass

I can love the life we had between us

Without pretending it can come back

You’re gone, and I’m still turning toward you

But the room gets easier to move through

I’m learning how to lose you slowly

And one day I’ll learn to choose me too

The coffee cup is finally in the sink

I leave the room before I start to think