Lyric

I wake up choking on my breath

Like guilt still sleeps beside me

My hands are shaking prayers I won’t say

To gods that won’t deny me

Every promise tastes like dirt

Every touch feels borrowed

I stitch my veins with yesterday

Just to bleed tomorrow

I don’t need heaven

I don’t need hell

I live somewhere in between

Where nothing helps

Carry the weight of my name

It drags me down in chains

I tried to love, I learned the pain

It always feels the same

I wear the scars, I feed the shame

I rot inside these chains

Your eyes were never really mine

Just windows cracked and broken

I learned to speak in half-truths

And swallow words unspoken

There’s a sickness in my sleep

It hums in perfect harmony

If this is what it means to heal

Don’t cure this misery

I’m not afraid of dying slow

I’m scared of never letting go

Carry the weight of my name

It drags me down in chains

I tried to love, I learned the pain

It always feels the same

I wear the scars, I feed the shame

I rot inside these chains

Hands around my throat

But they feel like home

Every lie I ever told

Carved into bone

Don’t save me

Don’t forgive

Just let me sink

Into this

Carry the weight of my name

No absolution, no escape

I bleed the truth I couldn’t say

And drown in what remains

I wear the scars, I feed the shame

I rot inside these chains

Still breathing

Still ashamed

Still here

Still in chains