Lyric

The usual café, the usual seat

Your favorite order in front of me

The place where we said, “See you tonight”

Same fading sun, same golden light

It used to fly when I waited for you

Minutes were wings when love felt true

But now the clock barely moves at all

Like time itself forgot to fall

“If it begins, it ends,” I say

While counting waves that wash away

Through the window, tide by tide

Trying to quiet what’s inside

You only saw me as your safe place

Somewhere to rest, not to stay

“Work,” “friends,” with no return time

And I kept waiting every night

Did you know I only saw you sleeping?

Did you know I cried alone?

No hands reached out when I was breaking

I had to stand on my own

It’s a painful choice, but I won’t regret it

I’m sealing you out of my heart

I’m scared without you, I admit it

But waiting hurts more than being apart

This is my answer…

This is my start

Lately your face was just a dream

A shadow lying next to me

I memorized your quiet breath

While drowning slowly in neglect

I was fading, piece by piece

Begging my heart to find release

But love alone can’t make you stay

If I’m the only one who prays

The waves keep crashing, soft and low

They seem to say, “Just let him go”

My coffee’s cold, but I am calm

There’s strength inside this broken heart

You only saw me as your shelter

Not the storm inside my soul

I needed arms to hold me tighter

Not empty nights that took their toll

Did you know I was unraveling?

Did you hear my silent screams?

I was fighting just to keep us breathing

While you were chasing other dreams

It’s a painful choice, but I won’t regret it

I loved you with all I had

I’d rather walk alone in the darkness

Than beg for the love we never had

This is my answer…

This is my start

I didn’t want to lose you

God knows I tried

But loving you was killing

What I kept inside

I won’t disappear

I won’t fade away

I’m choosing me today

The usual café, I’m sitting steady

The sunset paints my tears

No, I don’t regret our happy memories

I loved you through the years

But love should never feel like waiting

Like begging just to be seen

I’m walking forward, shaking

But stronger than I’ve ever been

I didn’t want to lose you

But I refuse to lose myself

I’m sealing you inside my past

And finally choosing myself

This is my answer…

This is my start

My brand new start