Lyric

The day I called your name for the very first time

Our breathing was out of sync, out of rhyme

Words would stumble, falling on the floor

Meaning couldn't catch up to us anymore

But we laughed so hard, it felt so brand new

Everything was fresh just because of you

Every little mistake, every clumsy line

Told me that I loved you, and you were mine

Awkward and messy, we didn't have a clue

But my heart was racing, heading straight for you

Before—a simple touch was enough to overflow

My heart was full, with nowhere else to go

After—I think too much, I’m careful what I say

Choosing every word before I send it your way

The words I couldn't find

The rhythm left behind

All of that messiness

Was love, I must confess

Your little habits, the silence in the air

I know them all now, I know that you’re there

The surprises are fewer, the sparks settled down

But the certainty’s deeper, no longer a clown

So many things I still want us to do

Not enough hands to hold onto you

The more that I want to tell you how I feel

The more my voice fades, losing its appeal

I should know you well, but on nights like these

I lose my way, drifting in the breeze

The warmth I’m used to suddenly feels cold

Like you’re miles away, out of my hold

Before—even the fear felt like a dream

After—now it’s a cold and calculated scheme

The more I try to be "right" for you

My heart lags behind, losing its view

Before—I only saw the dreams in your eyes

After—reality is where the truth lies

We’re moving forward, but I feel so stuck

Walking in place, just running out of luck

You haven't changed a bit, you’re still the same

But I’ve grown different, playing a new game

My expectations started growing tall

Waiting for things that weren't there at all

I don't hate this, no

It’s just not like before

But even so

I’m still holding your hand

Yeah, I’m still here