Lyric

When my hands still shake

I breathe and count to three

All the words I rushed to say

Still don't sound like me

Yesterday I said yes

Before I knew where I stood

That answer still feels wrong

Every time I play it back

I was trying to keep it light

Now I know I can't leave it at that

Count to three, I breathe again

I reach for what I need

I won't go back to who I used to be

Used to let my fear speak for me

Like a melody, it settles me

I'm gonna find my way

Like a melody, it brings me back

I won't look away

We're too close for me to fake it

That's why my heart still jumps

What I meant was give me a sec

Not another easy yes

If I let the moment pass

Fear will speak for me again

So I count until the words

Finally sound like mine

I was trying not to let you down

Now I know I can't hide it

Count to three, I breathe again

I reach for what I need

I won't say yes just to make it easy

Won't let my fear speak for me

Like a melody, it settles me

I'm gonna find my words

Like a melody, it brings me back

Let me tell you what I mean

One, two, three

Still here

You were just being kind

Deep breath

This time

I don't have to go along

I don't have to smile and nod

I can say what I mean

Count to three, I breathe again

I reach for what I need

I won't say yes when I don't mean it

Won't let my fear speak for me

Like a melody, it settles me

I finally found my words

Like a melody, it rings so clear

I'm gonna say it straight

You smiled and said

You could've just told me