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UTSU-UTA (Clinical Club Mix)

SomAtic

My legs are heavy, bound in lead

Without thinking, I roll my pants

Unbearable malaise strikes my body

Unable to resist, I give up moving

僕はどうしてしまったんだろう

僕はこれからどうなるんだろう

Knowing the answer

I explain it to myself

The same old story about monoamines

But that knowledge

Cannot clear my malaise

It’s an overwhelmingly gloomy mind

Deep seriousness, far from sadness

Not "don't want to" —

I simply cannot

Feelings rush ahead

Breeding more anxiety

僕はどうしてしまったんだろう

僕はこれからどうなるんだろう

Knowing the answer

I persuade myself

The same old story

That days get better

But those words

Do not quiet my impatience

Suddenly, I think, "I have no worth."

Not social value, value of my soul

It instantly connects to

"the meaning of life."

Sensing danger

I crawl beneath blankets

僕はどうしてしまったんだろう

僕はこれからどうなるんだろう

Knowing the answer... or do I?

I ask myself

But there is no answer

To the meaning of life

Questions with no answers

Boiling over

Malaise, gloom, anxiety

Questioning life's meaning

No matter where or when

They chase me down

I am losing even the places

Where I feel safe

Blindly searching, I stood on a hill

The vast sky, clouds, and wind

Clear blue sky purifies my mind

Changing clouds soften my heart

Wind whispers, "Take your time."

This nature works better than

Prescription drugs now

I should slowly take back a pure heart

Someday, I might find

The meaning of living

When I was finally able to think

That way

The malaise, gloom, anxiety

Impatience, worthlessness—

ほんの、ほんの少しだけ

I felt like they became lighter

ほんの少しだけ

With these feet more at ease, is fine

ほんの少しだけ

Toward tomorrow where hope grows

I walk

ほんの、ほんの少しだけ

Toward the light I could barely see

I walk

僕は歩いてく

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    SomAtic

The "Clinical Club Mix" of "Utsu-Uta" pushes the boundary by flipping the paralyzing reality of depression into a driving, high-energy house track. This club-extended mix creates a powerful, cynical contrast between raw, mental-health-focused bilingual lyrics and a heavy, floor-shaking French house groove. Featuring an androgynous, crystalline vocal style, the track embodies the artist's resilient, sharp-witted perspective on surviving the darkest times.

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  • SomAtic

    A physician standing at the quiet frontlines of existence, SomAtic confronts the myriad of lives, the soma, with unwavering sincerity day after day. Amidst the constant tides of life and death, agony and rebirth, he bears witness to the human condition at its most vulnerable. From the silent depths of his own being, words begin to stir, emerging with a quiet yet resonant power to crystallize into art. His sophisticated sound is meticulously crafted to resonate with the very heartbeat of life. This is no mere outpouring of emotion. It is a tapestry woven at the intersection of medical insight and artistic grace, a manifestation of deep reverence and compassion for the sanctity of life. As both healer and creator, SomAtic reaches into the shadows of the heart of the listener, kindling a faint but unextinguishable light upon the threshold of the everyday.

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