Lyric

I wear a smile, I keep it light

Say I’m okay, say I’m fine

No one sees the undertow

Pulling places I don’t show

I stand still on solid ground

But something’s rising without sound

There’s a tide inside me

No one can see

Tide inside me, ebb and flow

I stay quiet, but it shows

On the inside, I’m breaking slow

Like a secret nobody knows

I act calm, I play it right

But I drown a little every night

Tide inside me, deep and true

Pulling me back to you

I talk like time has done its part

Like healing fixed my fragile heart

But every laugh I learn to fake

Moves like waves I cannot break

I say your name inside my head

Then pull it back before it’s said

Tide inside me, coming strong

I pretend that nothing’s wrong

Tide inside me, rise and fall

I don’t fight it, I just stall

I move on in public view

But my thoughts come back to you

I learned how to hold my breath

While missing you beneath my chest

Tide inside me, soft but wide

Where I hide what won’t subside

The room is still, the lights are low

But my heart keeps moving slow

Every memory finds its way

Like the sea remembers bays

I close my eyes, I count the time

Between the lows, between the highs

Tide inside me, pulls me near

Every time I feel you here

Tide inside me, I behave

But inside I’m just a wave

Crashing where I used to stand

Reaching out an empty hand

If control is what I show

Then chaos is what flows below

Tide inside me, won’t agree

With who I’m supposed to be

One day maybe it will slow

Learn the rhythm, learn to go

But tonight I let it run

Till the damage is undone

I face the world with steady eyes

While oceans turn behind my smile

Tide inside me, take your time

I’ll survive you, line by line

Tide inside me, I allow

I don’t need to fight you now

If I’m calm, it’s just the skin

There’s a storm I’m living in

I won’t sink, but I won’t flee

This is what you left in me

Tide inside me, moving free

Until it sets me free