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This track is a deep blues song that vividly and painfully depicts a soul trapped in absolute solitude and nihilism, having destroyed everything in the battle between personal ideals and reality.
Starting with the scene of "city lights coldly laughing," the narrator confesses a complex self-contradiction: passing through society's hypocrisy by "pretending to be alive while holding my nose," yet acknowledging that the "thing I hated is still breathing" within himself. He fought wearing the "mask of freedom," only to find himself in the futile pose of a clown "swinging a sword at a windmill."
The repeated phrases, "I want to scream but no sound comes out" and "I haven't fulfilled any promises," vividly portray the soul's wound and the energy being devoured by despair. After crushing his "ideological pride" and sacrificing friends and love for his "selfishness," the inevitable outcome is a solitude where he is swallowed by an inorganic shadow.
The climax of this blues is the indomitable declaration in the outro: "Even if Japan vanishes, I will sing / with a voice that reaches no one." This is a soul-stirring piece that deeply resonates with the listener's own inner darkness, sharing the existential pain of a man standing at the edge of the void.