Satisfaction

Satisfaction is a song about fulfillment.
But it is not about the kind of fulfillment that comes from success, or from being recognized by someone else. It is something closer than that. Something closer to everyday life. It feels like the end of a day that did not go well, when you still cannot quite give up on tomorrow.

No matter how hard you try, things do not always work out.
You reach for people. You talk. You exchange familiar words. But that does not mean anything suddenly changes. There are nights when kindness and empathy are simply not enough.
This song begins from that feeling.

The satisfaction sung about here is not the opposite of pain. It is not a state where pain has disappeared, and it is not some perfect condition where everything has been fulfilled. There is pain you want to wake up from. There is anxiety that refuses to cool down. It is hard. And yet, when you try to keep moving by giving your own meaning to things, something small lights up deep inside your chest. In this song, that feeling is called satisfaction.

That is why the chorus repeats satisfaction by yourself and satisfaction as something you force meaning onto.
There are no neat answers.
There are no reasons that fully convince you from the start.
Even so, you have to make meaning for yourself. You have to make your own sense of acceptance. That is how you keep updating yourself little by little. And sometimes, beyond that process, something descends as a real feeling. I think satisfaction may be something like that. Like wiping a fogged-up window with your finger and seeing the view for just a second. It feels something like that.

At the same time, this song says even pain that does not cool down is nourishment.
It is not trying to affirm suffering, and it is not trying to beautify it either. Of course you want to wake up from it, you do not get used to it, and if possible you want relief. But sometimes those experiences become nourishment and make you stronger. Pain and anxiety cannot simply be erased. So I wanted to turn them into something that could still help you move forward. The later line satisfaction through anxiety, and because of that I am moving forward carries that same feeling. Having anxiety can also mean you have not stopped yet. Even if your steps creak, if you are still moving forward, that is still progress.

Satisfaction is a song about the kind of fulfillment that is not given to you by someone else, but made by yourself.
For the moments when you want to decide your own worth.
For the moments when kind words are not enough.
For the moments when things are not going well, but you still want to keep moving.
It is a song that cheers you on as you accept your pain and move forward.

On the cover, Sticky and Tomaty are quietly touching your heart.
This image contains another self-critical perspective on the lyrics. In the lyrics, I keep repeating satisfaction by yourself, but in reality, I believe people are also fulfilled in part by being recognized or praised by others. That is exactly why I chose to depict Sticky and Tomaty not as extensions of myself, but as clear others who are there beside your heart. Even while firmly saying that satisfaction is something you make for yourself, I also believe that people can be saved a little by being touched by someone elses presence. This song was made with that contradiction and that wavering included in it