My Blue

<<My Blue>>

In these blue-tinted days, I'm sick of it all
Acting all gray, just making her confused
Pretending all day long, like I'm someone else
Is this really okay? Hey... is it?

In the end, maybe I never really wanted it
Just when things were starting to go right, sorry-but no
My indecision makes my knees weak, trembling
Almost funny, how low I crawl

Here comes another cheating night
Followed by a punch from a pretentious morning
Dark, dark, dark-no matter which way I turn
Aren't I being stupid again? Always thinking that...
But I just can't stop
Cry, cry, cry, cry-face turning pale

In these blue-tinted days, I'm sick of it all
Acting all gray, just making her confused
Pretending all day long, like I'm someone else
Is this really okay? Hey... is it?

I hold my tongue so I don't kill the vibe
I just nod and go along, always obedient

Smile with the painkillers working
Then lose it all again on Monday-panic hits
So slow, this curse-it drags me down
Too stiff to roll, too fragile to fight
So brittle, so brittle-my face turning pale

Just showing up, hoping for something in return
But what I want to do is not this, not at all
Faking calm, blending into the shadows
"It's okay, I'll start from here"

Tomorrow comes with no warning
And the moment to choose is closing in
I know-I gotta go

In these blue-tinted days, I'm sick of it all
Acting all gray, just making her confused
Pretending all day long, like I'm someone else
Is this really okay? Hey... is it?

Impossible tasks-I just drown in pessimism
"Chase two, lose both"-they say, and it hurts my stomach
But if starting "from here" is allowed...
Then maybe that's enough.