I'm sorry I wasn't who you wanted
I'm sorry I took time away from
The search of a girl who doesn't exist
Lipstick in berry wasn't always what I went with
But it stained the end of your cigarette
And you called it art and called me a myth
You held my hand in the theater for a minute
But it wasn't enough, so you got up
And jumped into the movie screen
You fell in love with a manic pixie dream girl who looked
Perfect in every short and every word
Was pulled from a verse, manufactured
To captivate
You found her in a corner of a room, spotlighted
Looking unexcited like she didn't belong in this world
And you couldn't wait to uncover
What lied under her hardcore exterior
You never knew me, darling, you just saw my mess
Tragedies aren't always beautiful
But you loved me most when I was stressed
Something inside me makes me wanna dress
In something scarlet red
But you just watched me act like I had nothing left
You held my hand in the theater for a minute
But it wasn't enough, so you got up
And jumped into the movie screen
You fell in love with a manic pixie dream girl who looked
Perfect in every short and every word
Was pulled from a verse, manufactured
To captivate
You found her in a corner of a room, spotlighted
Looking unexcited like she didn't belong in this world
And you couldn't wait to uncover
What lied under her hardcore exterior
She wears a leather jacket as a barrier
And I own one too but she wears it better
'Cause damage is pretty only on screen but
No one
Out here will be your muse
No one is as unreal as you
We could've had this but you wanted a concept
I'm sorry I'm not a myth
But I exist
- Lyricist
Marin Ishida
- Composer
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Listen to Manic Pixie Dream Girl by Marin Ishida
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- 1
I Know Love
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Manic Pixie Dream Girl
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- 3
Blue
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- 4
There's A Bitch Inside My Head
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- 5
Blue Eyes
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- 6
Chasing Constellations
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- 7
True Love
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What I've always loved about music is that it always magically aligned itself with my life in some way. The songs on "Registered Myth" were selected based on the common themes they tackle; the dangers of romanticizing yourself, the loss of innocence as well as the ability to blindly believe, the acceptance of chaos and surrender of self-worth, and the rare moments of wisdom that pull you out just in time before you fall in too deep.
When I wrote these songs, I didn't know who, what, or where I wanted to be after seeing the adult world didn't work exactly how I imagined it. I had no idea what the thoughts I was putting into music were trying to say nor did I notice I was leaning on songwriting to process my emotions. It was like walking into your everyday enchanted forest where you expect fairies, nymphs, and princes, but you just see a bunch of humans wandering endlessly, everyone thinking the other is a mythical creature. So, you trick your eye into seeing yourself as the main character of an epic tale. You blissfully enjoy being chased by a prince who wants to break your curse, but once they do and they finally see you, you both realize you were only in love with the curse itself. You make dinner for the enchanted boy who visits you at midnight because his fascination excites you, knowing he won't choose you in the end because you can never fully belong in his world. You ruin yourself on the inside and only let the beautiful scars show through, only to break down in paradise because nobody knows the real you. And when you finally escape the glass encasing of idealization, you're still broken and a mess, but you're not scared of seeing who you truly are. I hope when you listen to these songs you see a way out of your enchanted forest and find the courage to see yourself as a real person, not a just myth.
Artist Profile
Marin Ishida
As a Contemporary Writing and Production major at Berklee College of Music, I studied in detail, Afro-Cuban music, Brazilian music, Motown, funk, acapella, big band jazz, orchestral, and the musical stylings of Stevie Wonder. My personal music has encompassed Indian fusion, folk-electronica, and a modernized jazz standard style. I've been a long-time student of music since I started classical violin when I was 7 years old. I've written music in various contexts, but I believe songwriting is the most vulnerable form of music as it has saved me and shown me who I am in many different ways on many different occasions. It's a space where my creativity can flow and explore all the strange inexplicable emotions people feel, as I often write my songs around a giant metaphor to process my feelings. I'm grateful to have learned the production and arrangement aspect of writing music. I think of the technical skills for music as a preparation for inspiration, in the way that I would know how to create the imagery of the metaphor I created through sound.
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