Lyric

Ryou himself has concerns and fears about his mother. It is the frozen mind of a 6-year-old and complex PTSD regarding "death."

October 2010... After hearing the story of how it was made for his father, older brother and older sister, he lost the meaning of being born.

He lost his eldest son, lost a friend who knew him from house arrest in an isolation room in a psychiatric ward at the age of 16, and was divorced and imprisoned again...

2023 is the year he lost baseball due to the COVID-19 pandemic and lived only for music.

He lost his beloved child and wife again, unable to truly protect his family, and lost two partners in the music industry, his parents and relatives.

He was hospitalized twice for his chronic condition of consciousness disorder (epileptic seizures, dissociative amnesia) and eating disorder, and was hospitalized twice, fell three times and broke his leg, fell 3 ... The continuation of the story I was starting to write, now with three wives and five children in total... This is the end of a work that can be left to all the loved ones from Ryou's perspective.
Postscript... All of my works have been and will be wills and testaments. However, it is a commandment that you should not talk about the deceased, no matter how close you were to them.
I was born on the death anniversary of my grandfather, who was the only family member who shaped the uptight me that I am, and Ozaki Yutaka, who I have respected for over 20 years and who shaped my music, and at this turning point, I swore that the third time was a charm and that I would love him forever.
It'll be okay if not a single person in the world ever listens to that kind of music.
My previous work, amor est anima aeterna, and adversus Ryou, are Latin for my musical life... I'm sorry that I want to end it there but am stubborn to give up. My love will surely continue to play even after I perish. I'm sure.