Lyric

How many times did I wish

I could just be who I am?

I kept playing someone else

Becoming who you wanted me to be

A hollow smile upon my face

I said I loved the things I hated

Locked away the real me so long

I don’t even know her anymore

I thought my only worth

Was living up to your expectations

I’m just a dummy

Made to be what you want me to be

I nod my head, I fake a smile

And hide what’s underneath

I’m just a dummy

How long have I been living this way?

Even the words “being myself”

Don’t mean anything to me these days

I learned to give the safest answers

Just to make sure you’d never hate me

Every time I chose the “right” thing

Another piece of me disappeared

The more they said, “You’re so kind,”

The more it somehow hurt inside

It wasn’t kindness after all

Just my way of staying liked

I got so good at following

Someone else’s idea of right

I’m still a dummy

Made to be what you want me to be

Never hurting, never hurt

Just playing the good girl perfectly

I’m still a dummy

Who’s waiting at the end of this road?

Will the person standing there be me?

I don’t even know anymore

No more yes No more lies

No more living someone else’s life

I was your dummy

But I’m ending this today

With these trembling hands of mine

I’ll untangle every string

I’m not your dummy

I won’t live for someone else

What I love and what I hate

I’ll finally choose them for myself