Lyric

I’m just confused by the kindness you show

But I end up glaring, and I don't know why

It’s like my face is a mask, a shadow below

While I’m secretly wishing for a clearer sky

I want to say "thank you" for the warmth of your hand

But I push you away, and I make a retreat

Collecting the loneliness, like grains of the sand

Bitter and heavy, and far from the sweet

I just want to be honest, I just want to be real

To show you the version of me that I feel

In front of you, I want to open the door

And stop all the battles and stop all the war

I want to be true, I want to be me

To let out the spirit and finally be free

I'm praying for a hug, for a place to belong

But my walls are too thick, and my armor’s too strong

I want to be honest, I want to be true

And open my heart only for you

My chest starts to ache from the choices I’ve made

I don’t know what’s real or what’s just a game

I’m lost in the doubt and I’m lost in the shade

And I’m tired of playing the girl with no name

"It’s easier alone, no one gets in the way"

How long will I keep up this stubborn charade?

I’m terrified of the debt I might pay

And the sting of a promise that starts to fade

I just want to be honest, I just want to be real

To show you the version of me that I feel

The fear of betrayal is a heavy, dark cloud

That makes all my whispers feel far too loud

I’m staring at you through a forest of thorns

Between the midnight and the light of the morns

My heart is a bird that is longing to fly

But it’s grounded by fears under a gray-colored sky

I want to be true, I want to be me

To let out the spirit and finally be free

I'm praying for a hug, for a place to belong

Even if the rhythm of my heart is all wrong

I want to be honest, I want to be true

And open my heart only for you

I want to be honest

Don't let me go

I'm just afraid

But I want you to know

Only for you

I want to be true