Lyric

I’ve got a list inside my head

Too many thoughts I never said

Do this, fix that, be okay

But nothing ever goes my way

I try to sort it, line by line

Like I can make my life rewind

But every plan I ever make

Just bends until it starts to break

頭の中がうるさくて

静かにする方法もなくて

I tell myself “just stay in control”

But I don’t even know my role

Feelings don’t follow any rule

They make me look like such a fool

So I try to organize my mind

Put my chaos in a line

Work, love, life make it clean

Like I’m living in a dream

But I’m still falling underneath

息ができないほどに

Yeah I try to organize my pain

But it keeps calling out my name

Nothing ever stays in place

この気持ちだけ散らかったまま

Yeah I’m fine? nah I lie too much

Smiling outside, inside crushed

“just be normal” who made that rule?

My broken parts don’t fit your school

I clean my room but not my soul

バラバラのまま lose control

Pretty face, messy brain

Still I carry all this pain

Don’t fix me, don’t judge me now

This chaos is my truth somehow

So I stop trying to organize my mind

Let the chaos stay alive

Work, love, life collide

I just feel it all tonight

Yeah I stop pretending I’m fine

このままでいいって思いたい