Lyric

I drew a map of my mistakes

Pinned them up above the sink

They drip like coffee

Cold and late

I nod

Pretend I never think

Every “what if” turns to static

Every promise comes out twisted

I keep joking through the panic

Teeth all showing

Hope long-missing (Hah)

I’m laughing in the abyss

Mouth wide open to the pitch-black pit

If I don’t crack up

I’ll crack apart

So I laugh

I laugh

Till it breaks my heart

Yeah

I’m laughing in the abyss

Echo comes back

Sounds just like this

If I don’t lose it

I’ll lose me

So I laugh where I can’t see

I wear my fear like thrift-store clothes

Threadbare hope and inside jokes

Shake hands with shadows in the hall

Say

“Good to see you

After all”

Every late-night revelation

Turns to dust by morning light

I make punchlines out of aching

Turn the terror into spite (Hey)

I’m laughing in the abyss

Mouth wide open to the pitch-black pit

If I don’t crack up

I’ll crack apart

So I laugh

I laugh

Till it breaks my heart

Yeah

I’m laughing in the abyss

Echo comes back

Sounds just like this

If I don’t lose it

I’ll lose me

So I laugh where I can’t see

What if this is all there is?

Jokes and jagged little cliffs

What if I just let it hit?

(Shh)

I snort

I snarl

I call its bluff

Say

“Come on

That all you got?”

My voice shakes

But I won’t stop

I’m laughing in the abyss

Mouth wide open to the pitch-black pit

If I don’t crack up

I’ll crack apart

So I laugh

I laugh

Till it breaks my heart

Yeah

I’m laughing in the abyss

Echo comes back

Sounds just like this

If I don’t lose it

I’ll lose me

So I laugh where I can’t see (Ha)

So I laugh where I can’t see