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Since launching her live activities in full scale in 2025, this song has been performed at nearly every show and has become one of Kijima El's signature pieces. It is now finally released as an official recording.

Previously included in the live venue exclusive acoustic album Under the Sky, the song returns in a newly arranged version.

With the addition of strings by Kazunori Suma Strings, the track expands in scale, bringing to life the restrained impulses and the energy of liberation that lie within.

Comment by Kijimael

There was a time when, in order to pursue my dream of living through expression, I felt I had to blend into society and pretend to be normal. No matter how hard I tried, something always felt forced. This song was born from the discomfort of not being able to truly fit in.

There were days when I was afraid of drifting away from my dream. I wrote this song as a promise to myself, a resolve to keep choosing what I truly want. It carries a message to move forward not by logic or appearances, but by instinct.

I refuse to let it end on a desk.

This is Kijima El's current position, right here, right now.

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Artist Profile

  • Kijimael

    Kijima El is a singer-songwriter who is gaining increasing attention both in Japan and overseas. With a voice that carries both clarity and melancholy, along with her distinctive ukulele expression, she has been steadily expanding her audience. Her Instagram following, which was around 900 in May of last year, grew to 30,000 as of February 2026, showing a rapid rise in recognition. Her self-written songs delicately portray inner landscapes that feel almost like prayers, resonating with listeners as music that gently accompanies their own memories and emotions. Her song Miyuki, released on February 6, 2026, was created around the theme of facing her name and destiny. The song was selected for NEW BORN J-POP, a playlist on KKBOX Taiwan, one of Taiwan's largest music streaming services, introducing emerging J-POP artists on the verge of breakthrough. In addition to being featured on the playlist, Kijima El was also selected as the banner artist, further increasing her visibility across Asia. Since May 15, she has been featured as the vocalist in Daihatsu's commercial Hataraku Watashi ni Daihatsu Mei. She is currently performing mainly in Shimokitazawa and Daikanyama. Her latest single, How are you doing?, was released on May 16.

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