Lyric

I’ve been having suicidal thoughts

A lot, writing this lines

Thinking about the dot

One more time

I see myself alone

Longing to talk to someone

But got no one, yea

One more time

I see myself stuck in this daily routine

The same I said hate

Since my early fourteen

But for a teen’s

Hard to understand sacrifices

You criticize people unsatisfied

About their lifes and

Don’t ever see how hard it is to change life

For the first time

I see myself giving up on my dreams

Dedicating one hundred percent of me

To the job I have been

Wasting my whole energy

To build another person’s dream

Feeling like a dead fish

Following the stream

One more time

I see myself hating on my body

Hating on the way I eat

But too confortable

Cause change’s hard, shit

Yea, my self esteem endless ferris wheel

Sometimes I love the mirror

Sometimes I forget how it feels

“You’ll never be like the rappers you like

I like to see you chasing your dreams

But you’re wasting your time

Time’s money and

You ain’t got that much to spend

You better stop this rap shit

Get another shift

And help to pay the rent

Wake up!

The only dreams you’ll achieve

Are the ones when you sleep

I hate to be awaken ‘fore the sunrise

When I can’t sleep

Is when my demons came to haunt hard

I grab my phone

Looking things to entertain my darkness

Even when the screen light

I can’t give my heart rest

I’d rather rest in peace

Cause in my mind’s a war

Lately death seems appealing way

Kinda of a halt

To all the feelings of sore

I’ve been feeling at my core

On my gloomiest sundays

Anything ends my boredom

And before sun comes

I expect God to come close

Expell my demons

Otherwise I’ma end up one more Kurt

No one miss me when I’m gone

It ain’t no cup song

The only cup’s the one

I pour in my throat

A poison

I’m the third son of a strong mom

Who always hold on

I wish I had inherited it from her