melancholic irony

It was around the time when that epidemic was raging.
I ran into a boy who was a college student at the time at a ZOOM drinking party.
We became good friends and I fell in love with him.
I confessed to him as soon as I could, but he laughed and said, I totally agree with you, and we remained friends.
He listened to my request to hear his voice, we fell asleep every night and talked until morning.
He loves girls.
He didn't feel bad when I told him I wanted to.
He even said he wanted to think about whether he could really like Takumaru.
When we were walking alone on an empty street, he did me a favor and asked me to hold his hand.
He told me he liked me, and because it was funny, I watched all the episodes of iM@S he liked on AmazonPrimeVideo.
If I hadn't done that, I would have never met the song Yakusoku by Chihaya Kisaragi, and it would never have become one of my favorite songs that I still listen to today.
I fell in love with a girl who liked foreign cigarettes and started smoking cigarettes even though I had quit smoking for over 10 years.
Well, the love never materialized. But we remained friends for a long time.
I tried to give up on him once. I tried to forget him.
I quit smoking and erased his picture.
There is one picture I can't erase.
It is a picture of the two of us smiling on the stairs of the Shinkansen station.
After that, we were both busy for about three years, so we stopped calling each other on the phone and on line, but just the day before yesterday? We started to keep in touch again.
When I fell in love with him, I thought it would be the last time, but after talking to him for the first time in a while, I realized that I still love him.
I still love you.
Thank you. I'm glad.
This one exchange made me realize that I don't have to be greedy anymore, that I don't have to try so hard.
I think I will always love he.
It's the last love of my life.
Even if he hates me in the future, I will continue to love her until I die.
I always wanted to have a love like BL comic.
Now I am in love like a BL comic.
I don't care if it's unrequited love for the rest of my life. I am happy.

I wrote this song because I love him.
Everyone told me, takumaru-san, I can't listen to this song because I know Takumaru-san, it makes me itchy!

I don't think I can ever write a song like this again.
It doesn't have to be played a lot. Thank you for letting me make it.
I really love you. I really love you. Thank you.