Lyric

Why is happiness always out of reach?

Leaving every smile behind, just like a ghost

When I pile up all these decorated words

I start to lose the place where I went wrong

"I’m doing fine"—who was I saying that for?

Hey, where did my voice disappear to?

Forgetting the warmth I thought I once held tight

Holding my breath in the cracks of the night

The words you gave me feel just like a curse

Why does it hurt so much, even when it’s sweet?

It’d be so much easier if I could just tell the truth

Hey, why does my heart race every time I stay silent?

The voice stuck in my chest echoes like a burst

You knew I was smiling without a real laugh

Holding on too tight to what I thought was right

Nobody saw the moment it all came undone

Happiness fragments shaking in my palm

The tighter I grip, the more they fall through

Hey, there was never a way to keep it all

From the very beginning, I knew that, didn't I?

What was I protecting by pretending not to see?

Hey, where did all the things I let go end up?

Happiness is the layers of spilled light

The strain is what fills the gaps in my heart

The voices I embraced unravel and bleed

Confirming that I’m still alive, right here

Hey, who was it that decided

That this wasn't a mistake?

I only wanted to think of you

But it brought along all of this pain

Happiness is the light I touched with my fingertips

The strain is the shadow left upon my heart

But the thing that let me stay as myself

Was this swaying feeling, every part of it

Happiness is