わたしはもうダメだと思って
何ももうできないと思って
無くしたもの取りもどせない
Of course, I can't change you
A skull lies buried beneath my feet
What is left for me to do?
信じた訳（わけ）ひとつずつ消え
守ろうとしてたの、もうなにもない
Something remains when all else fades
勝利じゃない
救済じゃない
All that's left is the freedom not to betray myself
I knew it all along
どう思いたいの？
本当はずっと知ってたじゃない
I tried not to hear that voice
I don't want to lose what I have
I don't want to break what I love
I don't want to get hurt
Nothing will change anyway
Yes, those are practical reasons
What is left for me to do?
言い訳はもう意味を失い
見ないふりする理由、もうなにもない
Something remains when all else fades
勝利じゃない
救済じゃない
All that's left is the freedom not to betray myself
I knew it all along
ずっとそう、そこにあった
わたし見ようとしなかったじゃない
I tried not to hear that voice
I don't want to lose what I have
I don't want to break what I love
I don't want to get hurt
Nothing will change anyway
Yes, those are practical reasons
わたしはもうダメだと思って
何ももうできないと思って
無くしたもの取りもどせない
Of course, I can't change you
I hold a spear in my hand
- Lyricist
tachemi
- Composer
tachemi
- Producer
tachemi
- Vocals
ENA
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The Skull and the Spear
ENA
The imagery of the skull and spear in this song was inspired by a carving I saw on the façade of the Ruins of St. Paul's in Macau.
The original carving depicts a skeleton with an arrow, accompanied by a message reminding us of our mortality and urging us not to sin.
This reflects the Christian tradition of Memento Mori , "Remember that you must die."
I was deeply drawn to the idea that awareness of death can influence how we choose to live.
From that inspiration, I developed my own interpretation of the skull and the spear as metaphors for mortality and the freedom to live according to one's own will.
To me, though, living a better life doesn't necessarily mean the same thing as living a morally righteous one.
What I wanted to explore was a question: Because our lives are finite, what do we truly value? What do we choose, and how do we choose to live?
In the lyrics, as I find myself in the depths of despair, my convictions become clearer and purer. I come face to face with something I have always known, something I could never bear to betray.
Despair doesn't have to be overcome. Salvation doesn't have to come.
Even if nothing changes, even if no light appears, the deeper the despair becomes, the clearer it can be what I must choose.
That's what I wanted to express through this song.
Artist Profile
ENA
ENA is an artist who portrays memory, solitude, hope, and the quiet strength to begin again through delicate vocals and poetic lyrics. Moving between indie pop, alternative pop, dream pop, and electronic textures, she creates cinematic soundscapes that reflect emotional waves through melodies filled with both sensitivity and forward motion. Her lyrics vividly capture fleeting moments in everyday life when emotions overflow, expressed through delicate words and melodies.
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