Lyric

Ah, ah... is this really okay?

I guess it’s a mistake, in every way

The hands that were cold are burning with heat

While the warm heart turns to ice, feeling defeat

Thump—the heart is sinking deep down low

Clack-clack—the train is swaying to and fro

I swear I had my reasons, in my own way

So why do I look like trash at the end of the day?

Is there even a meaning to being alive?

Am I helping someone else to survive?

If I’m just a nuisance, hated by all

I don’t know why I’m here, waiting for the fall

Should I just vanish? Should I take the leap?

A million times, these thoughts I’d keep

But inside this world, I can still see

Things that are left to be done by me

Swallowing the feelings that don’t feel right

Getting through the awkward air with all my might

Even when I’m on the verge of tears so blue

I’m only breathing, just pushing through

My words are becoming lost children in the dark

My life is growing dimmer, losing every spark

But even so, inside of me

Is something I still want to be

Is there even a meaning to being alive?

Am I helping someone else to survive?

If someone like me is just taking up space

Wouldn’t it be better if I left no trace?

Should I just vanish? Should I take the leap?

A million times, these thoughts I’d keep

But I felt that somewhere, someone might stay

Who would say they love me, in their own way

I wonder if the black paint, dark as the night

Can one day be covered over with white

Holding onto that one moment of hope

Today, I’m just breathing, learning to cope

Is there even a meaning to being alive?

Is it really okay for me to arrive?

Even for someone like me, I start to think

Maybe it’s okay to stay on the brink

But when I look back, I can finally see

There’s someone out there who’s needing me

So right here and now, I’ll make my stand

And won’t bring an end to it all, by my own hand