Release Date: 2026/08/28
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Even after being hurt even after being disappointed
I still waver every time I am held
When the hand that saved me
is the same hand that pulled me under
Even though I know I should walk away
I keep choosing that person again and again
caught between anxiety and comfort
despair and happiness
I do not want the mistakes
the pain
or even the love I gave
to become something I have to call wrong
You cannot take away the fact that I loved you
That is mine
And I will not let you take it from me
This is a song about a relationship
where love and pain can no longer be separated
shuka / Room no.38. While centered on hiphop and J-pop, I focus not on expressing emotions as they are, but on putting into words the process in which emotions waver, break, and distort. Rather than offering healing or answers, I value leaving untouched areas and ambiguous in-between states exactly as they are. I see music not as something that heightens emotion, but as a rhythm through which thought moves forward. I move across genres such as ballads , rock, EDM, and K-pop, choosing the form that best fits the expression. Sincerity over clarity. The present moment over completion. These sounds and words are not a story of searching for myself, but a record of being alive here and now. The form of each song is not limited to ballads, EDM, or hip hop. Starting from poetry, I choose only the sounds that are necessary. I value the uniqueness of what only I can write.