Lyric

I used to think

Every thread had to lead somewhere

Turns out

Some just hold you there

I learned love from open doors

Half goodbyes and bedroom floors

Every hand that pulled me near

Left another little fear

I wore names that weren’t my own

Built a room and called it home

Stayed because the walls felt known

Even when I felt alone

Then one night

Something came undone

Not all at once

Just one thread

Then another one

I’m a free spyder

No web above my head

No hand deciding

Where I hang or where I’m led

Free spyder

Running where the pavement ends

I don’t need a perfect story

I don’t need to make amends

Every thread I cut

Left a little light behind

I’m a free spyder

And this life is mine

Mine

Mine

Finally mine

I kissed venom, tasted sweet

Broke my glass teeth in the street

Left the window open wide

Watched the morning step inside

Bad habits, saints and scars

Static hearts and borrowed cars

Every version I became

Still came back wearing my name

Maybe freedom isn’t clean

Maybe freedom leaves a mark

Maybe knowing who you are

Means walking through the dark

I’m a free spyder

No web above my head

No hand deciding

Where I hang or where I’m led

Free spyder

Running where the pavement ends

I don’t need a perfect story

I don’t need to make amends

Every thread I cut

Left a little light behind

I’m a free spyder

And this life is mine

No strings tonight

No velvet cage

No safe road

No borrowed name

No halo

No disguise

No permission

No alibis

I don’t need someone

To set me free

I already did that

For me

If I fall

I’ll fall forward

If I break

I’ll know why

If I love

I’ll love because I chose it

Not because I’m scared to say goodbye

I spent so long

Trying not to lose anybody

I almost lost myself

Not again

I’m a free spyder

Nothing hanging over me

Every road is open

Even ones I cannot see

Free spyder

Let the whole horizon bend

I don’t need to know the ending

Just to know where I begin

Every scar I kept

Every mistake I made

Every night I thought

I’d never find my way

Brought me here

Alive

I’m a free spyder

And this life is mine

Cut the thread

Open the door

I don’t wanna hide anymore

Morning sun

Black boots

Heart still bruised

Nothing to lose

No cage

No guide

Just me

Outside

Free spyder

Don’t follow me

Come find your own way