Lyric

I keep touching where the ring was

Didn't notice till today

My thumb just goes there on its own

Then stops when there's nothing there

I gave it back with steady hands

I meant it when I said I couldn't

You asked me if I was sure

I said I was

I still am

I know why I said no

I haven't changed my mind

But I keep looking at my hand

And I don't know why

I wanted to marry you

I just couldn't marry us

I meant it when I gave it back

That doesn't mean I don't miss you

I loved you when I gave it back

I love you now, I think

I thought I'd feel better by now

I really thought I would

Everyone keeps telling me

I did the brave thing

I smile and say, "I know"

Like that makes it easier

My mother asked about the dress

I told her not to worry

Then sat inside my car awhile

Before I drove back home

I don't want the ring back

That's not what this is

I just thought by now

I'd miss you less than this

I wanted to marry you

I just couldn't marry us

I meant it when I gave it back

That doesn't mean I don't miss you

I loved you when I gave it back

I love you now, I think

I thought I'd feel better by now

I really thought I would

I made coffee this morning

In that chipped cup you hated

Caught my thumb against my finger

Looking for the weight again

For half a second I forgot

Then I looked down at my hand

I stood there with my coffee

Until it wasn't hot anymore

Do I want you back?

I don't know

That's the truth

I really don't

I miss you

More than I thought I would

Some mornings I almost call you

Then I remember what I'd have to say

But if you came here tonight

With that ring in your hand

I don't know

God

I wish I knew

I wanted to marry you

I just couldn't marry us

I knew that when I gave it back

I know it even now

I loved you when I gave it back

That's what makes this hard

I don't want to change my mind

I just want to stop missing you

I told everyone I'm okay

Most days I almost mean it

I wanted to marry you

That part is still true

I could see the house, the years

All of it with you

I don't want the ring back

I don't think I want us back

I just miss the life

I thought would be mine

And some nights

I still miss you

My thumb finds that place again

Nothing there

I leave my hand

Right where it is