Lyric

Streetlights blur through the taxi glass

Another night pretending it won’t last

Everybody asks if I’m okay

So I smile and throw my heart away

I learned how to cry without making noise

How to drown inside my favorite songs

You called me “strong” like it was beautiful

But strong just means surviving too long

Your name still lives inside my headphones

Your jacket still smells like smoke and rain

And every little thing I never told you

Comes back louder after midnight again

I kept saying “I’m fine”

Like saying it enough would make it true

Every time I said “I’m fine”

Something inside me broke quietly

Every little lie I told to survive

Turned into another scar I hide

You moved on like nothing happened

While I replayed every memory

Now the silence in my bedroom

Sounds more honest than me

Every time I said “I’m fine”

I was falling apart inside

Oh-oh-oh

Nobody noticed the damage

Oh-oh-oh

I mastered looking okay

I still type your name by accident

Like my hands remember what my heart can’t lose

And all my friends are getting married

While I drink alone to old tattoos

You said I was “too emotional”

Maybe you were just afraid to feel

Cause loving me meant seeing everything

Not just the parts that looked ideal

I kept smiling in crowded places

While slowly disappearing inside myself

Every time I said “I’m fine”

Something inside me screamed your name

I turned my pain into pretty pictures

So nobody saw the flames

You left without even looking back

But I still wait when it rains

Now every song sounds like goodbye

And every goodbye sounds the same

Every time I said “I’m fine”

I was begging not to break

Maybe I got too good

At hiding sadness behind beauty

Maybe nobody saves the girl

Who always says she’s okay

But honestly

I wasn’t okay

Not even close

Every time I said “I’m fine”

I shattered somewhere nobody could see

But tonight I’m done pretending

Your ghost still belongs to me

If heartbreak really makes us stronger

Why do I still feel weak?

Why does healing look so lonely

When love is all I wanted to keep?

Every time I said “I’m fine”

I was breaking slowly

Streetlights fade into the morning

The city finally goes to sleep

And for the first time in forever

I let myself admit

You destroyed me