Lyric

Laughing with a madness in my shaking voice

Hiding from the light — the dark is where I disappear

Smiling through the violence that I swallow down

People terrify me — I’d rather live alone

I never understood what love was meant to be

I ruined every chance I had to feel it real

I was terrified of being someone’s precious thing

So I lied and acted strong until I broke

In a silent room I lose myself

Breathing heavy just to prove I’m still alive

Being alone is fine with me —

I never wanted love from anyone at all

If I depend on someone else, I’m no longer who I am

Laughing with a twisted grin of ecstasy

Light is just a nuisance — drown me in the dark

Smiling while I cage the urge to tear apart

People terrify me — solitude is all I want

I never knew what loving truly meant

I played with romance like a careless little flame

Afraid of falling, I just laughed it all away

Meaningless and hollow every time

In a paper-thin room I tear myself apart

Touching skin without a thought inside my head

Being alone is happiness —

I never wanted to adore or to be adored

If I drown inside someone else, I’m no longer who I am

Nights alone are quiet — silence steals my breath

Wait—did I die? No, just a dream

Almost crying from the emptiness—

In a silent room I lose myself

Breathing heavy just to prove I’m still alive

Being alone is fine with me —

I never wanted love from anyone at all

If I depend on someone else, I’m no longer who I am

In this paper-thin room I fall apart

Touching skin without a reason, without thought

Alone is happiness for me —

I never wished to love or be loved

If I’m drowning in someone else, I’m no longer who I am