Lyric

Where do I begin?

Burying my head in the holding hands

I didn’t even know that’s hurting myself

Constantly scratching my skin, peeling my nails

I thought I could see the world when I open my eyes, but in the reality, it wasn’t that simple

Mom always says I'm a hard man to know

Warm place without a hope

Eyes were red, but I always get pale

I got a hope with an expiry date

Dad always told me “hope can drive a man insane.”

Every single time I justify his words, I feel it as a hanged man without a rope

What is on my neck suffocating me?

Blooming a withered misery that deserves to be burnt

Flashing smoke makes me a blind for the things I’m longing to see

Embracement without a love is just torturing me

Embracement with a heavy love is just torturing me

I'm so broken

All the ego caused by an altered birth

All the lights I lighten it up in the dark couldn’t shine brightly enough

Dwelling at a broken home like as a parasite

My life collapsed over and over again

I got lost when I thought that I'm being home

Everything has gone so wrong

Was it really all my fault?

I'm sick of finding where I belong

The compass keeps spinning around

Where do I go?

There's no home to go back

Anxiety I have always had hit me hard but wasn’t strong enough to destroy me

I think I lost some parts of myself that adorning myself

That could be a wing but that hold me back

I always said I'm so lost at home

Never felt like being home cuz I'm so alone

Because the home can never be the home that is used to be without warning all you