Lyric

I answer fast before the silence grows

I laugh before the room can change

I keep my edges folded in

And make the heavy feelings plain

I turn my hurt into a joke

I make the awkward moment light

I say I’m fine in such a way

That everybody sleeps at night

They like the version I can hand them

Sweet enough to never show

How much it costs to stay this gentle

How far I go to not say no

I kept it soft I kept it low

I made myself easy to love

And hard to know

Hard to know

I kept it bright I let it go

I gave them the girl they could hold

But not the whole

Not the whole

I asked for less so you could stay

I called it patience every time

I moved my wanting out the way

And made your comfort look like mine

You missed the parts I never said

You loved the calm I learned to fake

I let you think I needed nothing

So nothing was all I could take

You liked the version I could manage

Light enough to never weigh

But every time I made it easy

I disappeared another way

I kept it soft I kept it low

I made myself easy to love

And hard to know

Hard to know

I kept it bright I let it go

I gave them the girl they could hold

But not the whole

Not the whole

In the mirror after midnight

I watch my borrowed face come down

All the sweetness leaves my mouth

And no one is around

I do not know who I would be

If I stopped keeping everything small

Would anybody love me then

If I became difficult at all

I kept it soft I kept it low

I made myself easy to love

And hard to know

Hard to know

I kept it bright until I broke

I made a home inside a role

But not my soul

Not my soul

Now the room is finally quiet

Now the smile is letting go

Maybe I was easy to love

Because I was hard to know