Lyric

I’m not mad, I’m not asking

I’m just laughing in the wrong room

You can call it being easy

I call it hiding the bruise

You said maybe like a favor

I said sure like I was free

You kept every plan half-open

I made nothing bother me

You checked your phone under the table

I made a joke and looked away

I could feel my chest go quiet

So I let you have the day

I had a harder line to draw

But I made it look like air

If I named the way it hurt me

You might see me standing there

I play the cool girl in a bad situation

All good smile on, no explanation

Too chill to say it cuts me

Too calm to make it known

I play the cool girl in a bad situation

Let you leave me with the weight of patience

I make myself convenient

Then hate myself alone

You mention her like it is nothing

I turn the knife into a laugh

I let the silence keep you comfortable

And split my wanting clean in half

I say no worries like a password

I say all good like a door

I make the heartbreak look effortless

So you do not see it on the floor

I was not born this easy

I rehearsed it over time

Every go ahead I gave you

Moved your footprints over mine

I play the cool girl in a bad situation

All good smile on, no explanation

Too chill to say it cuts me

Too calm to make it known

I play the cool girl in a bad situation

Let you leave me with the weight of patience

I make myself convenient

Then hate myself alone

I am not jealous, I am not angry

That is the speech I know by heart

But I have swallowed every question

Till it learned to tear me apart

Being cool was never freedom

It was fear with better clothes

I held my face still for your comfort

And called the damage control

I was the cool girl in a bad situation

All good smile gone, no explanation

Too tired to keep it casual

Too real to leave it alone

I was the cool girl in a bad situation

Lost myself in the performance of patience

I made myself convenient

But I am not convenient anymore

I’m not mad, I’m not asking

But I am not laughing now

You can call it being easy

I know what it cost me now