Lyric

The room is dark except my phone

Blue light painting tired walls

I said I’d sleep an hour ago

But your name still fills my thoughts

Cars go passing far below

The city never really stops

And neither do the little things

I wish I knew how to let drop

Every time I close my eyes

Something pulls me back inside

Still awake

With too much on my mind

Your voice, my fears

The future and the time

Still awake

While everyone else dreams

I’m wide open in the dark

With everything I mean

I replay the smallest scenes

The way you laughed, the way you paused

How silence said more honestly

Than anything we ever spoke

I try to breathe and let it go

But midnight turns it into weight

Some feelings only grow louder

When the world gets quiet late

Every time I almost heal

Something makes it all feel real

Still awake

With too much on my mind

Old wounds, new hopes

The things I left behind

Still awake

While everyone else sleeps

I’m holding conversations

I never got to keep

Maybe morning brings relief

Maybe sunlight clears the haze

But tonight I’m here with all of me

And nowhere else to place it

Still awake

But softer than before

I’m learning how to carry

What I couldn’t before

Still awake

Until the sky turns blue

And somewhere in the quiet

I’m becoming someone new