Lyric

I became nothing but a soul

Murdered by the weight of guilt

Did you find your peace?

I’ll never know

For the last time, I weighed all I had—

And the body that held my dreams

Shot upward on the scale

Isn’t that absurd?

That’s when I decided:

I’ll do it until I die

Though “until I die”

Means only the time it takes

For you merely to finish your morning bread

Clutching nothing worth more

Than a handful of stardust

I whispered “I’m happy enough,”

And walked toward death

No one came to meet me

No one was there

Only the concept of me

Floating in perfect darkness

(I feel as if you’re slapping me now, with a force even stronger than back then.)

My feelings were gone;

In the place my heart should have been

I spoke forever in the same tone

Every boundary dissolved

Just awareness, aware of awareness itself

(I feel as if you’re slapping me now, with a force even stronger than back then.)

Somewhere, my voice echoed

Fading, fading—until it vanished

I felt nothing

But you stood within the colors

And I disappeared into black