Lyric

What was happening back then—

I’m finally beginning to understand

If you hadn’t been there

I would have fallen back again

Gathering the faint traces of emotion

Piece by piece

Gently unraveling

The meaning of that overwhelming current

And yet, somewhere along the way

I had begun to digest it all

Not just the meaning of the words

But why those actions existed at all

Again and again it returned—

That pull, trying to drag me back

An endless loop

A sudden strike out of nowhere

A solitary performance of gaslighting

The quiet intensity I felt back then—

Not something to blame myself for

But something

I needed to fully feel

You created a place where I was safe

So I could let it all unfold

Without fear or doubt

And feel each surge, one by one

Even through tears

And yet, somewhere along the way

I had begun to digest it all

Not just the meaning of the words

But why those actions existed at all

Again and again it returned—

That pull, trying to drag me back

An endless loop

A sudden strike out of nowhere

A solitary performance of gaslighting

That person never loved me—

I was only ever a tool

I see that now

That’s all it was

And everything—

Was for my awakening