Lyric

If I could just let everything out

How easy it would be

Doing nothing—

They say that’s “normal”

That’s how “adults” are supposed to be

But this feeling’s gonna tear me apart

Swallow me until I disappear

I’m afraid of losing myself

I just want to talk

I just want to see you smile

But even that feels wrong these days

Voices around me

That I don’t want to hear

Still I listen anyway

Is it because, deep down

I’m hoping for a miracle?

Walking home together

Arriving at the same place

Things you do so naturally

With the one you’re dating—

And every word I overhear

Cuts another scar into my chest

If I scream where no one’s watching

If I stare into the fading sky

If I could turn back all the time we lost—

Would this pain finally die?

Searching for a reason just to talk to you

Forcing myself to try

Failing over and over again

Until I break inside

I don’t know anymore

Pretending that I’m okay

While falling apart

Trying to smile

With shaking hands

If only I could say your name

Without losing who I am

If I scream where no one hears me

If I watch tomorrow pass me by

If I could rewrite every yesterday—

Would I stop asking why?

I’m trying hard to stay alive here

Trying not to cry

Everything collapses quietly

And I don’t know why

I don’t know anymore