Lyric

Always thought you’d stay past winter

Coffee on the stove

Your sweater on my chair

I scrubbed your name from every window

Still find your shadow folded in the air

I loved you like the last of the daylight

Holding on

Shaking in the doorway glow

You walked off with the sky on your shoulders

Left me here learning how to let you go

Sometimes I still reach for your toothbrush

Like muscle memory refuses to grow old

Our photos in a box above the freezer

Smell like rain and metal and untold

I miss you like a train that I slept through

Gone before I ever touched the tracks

Every “what if” hangs heavy in the hallway

Every step forward drags me backward

Back

Midnight finds your cup in the kitchen

Lipstick faded thin along the rim

I talk out loud to empty wooden chairs

Pretend your tired laugh is answering

I hate you for the way that I need you

Both hands bleeding from this fraying rope

Cursing every promise that we whispered

Clinging to the hurt because it feels like hope

After all the storms and the silence

I still check my phone when the thunder starts

Your ringtone is a ghost in the speaker

Rattling the ribs around my heart

I’m learning how to love in the ruins

Let the cracks show every place you were

If healing means I slowly lose your memory

Then break me

Bruise me

Blur and still I’d choose her

Strangers say your name like it’s nothing

But it hits me like a closing door

If I see you smiling in some future morning

May it hurt me once

And never

Anymore