Lyric

You drew a heart

In the dust on my dashboard

Said

“drive ’til it fades”

Like we’d outrun every season

We watched the rain

Make rivers on the windshield

Every red light

Felt like time holding on

I keep on loving you in past tense

Talking ’bout us like a story that’s done

Still I’m tracing your name in the margins

On receipts

On napkins

On everything I touch

If this is over

Why does my chest

Keep turning pages back to us

You wore my coat

In the heat of late August

Laughing too loud

At a joke I forgot

Your coffee cold

On the table between us

Questions half-asked

Hanging right in the air

I keep your birthday saved in my phone

Like a door that I’m scared to delete

Every year I pretend I don’t notice

But the date hits hard

And I grind my teeth

If we were right

Why did we break

If we were wrong

Why does it ache

You changed your hair

From the brown that I knew well

New city lights

On your face in the photos

Friends say you’re good

Say you laugh a little softer

Say you don’t ask

If I’m doing okay

I tell the world that I’m fine now

That I learned what I needed to learn

Still I flinch when I hear our old phrase

In the mouth of a stranger who turns

If love moves on

Why am I stuck

If I’m moved on

Why is this stuck

I wrote your name

On the back of a plane ticket

Thought I might leave

All this weight in the sky

Touchdown at home

Nothing really had shifted

Same quiet room

Same ghost in my mirror

I build a future that you’re not in

Like a house on a road we outgrew

Still I set one place at the table

For a version of me beside you

If I let go

Will something remain

Or do I lose you and lose my name

Maybe we were

Too young

Too sure

Too stubborn to bend (Hey)

Maybe we were

Exactly enough for a moment that had to end

I don’t hate you

I don’t love you any less

I just live here

In the space your absence left

I keep on loving you in past tense

Speaking softly to nobody there

All these years and the smallest reminders

Turn the air to a crowded prayer

If this is closure

Why does it bleed

If this is healing

Why do I need… you