Lyric

[Intro - Whispered, slow]

Merry Christmas, everyone

Your favorite idol is here

Smile, smile, always smile

...right?

[Verse 1 - Fast, low tension, spoken-sung]

Ring ring ring the bells are screaming in my head

Sparkle sparkle lights are flashing white and red

"You look so cute!" "You're like an angel!" "Marry me!"

A thousand voices wanting pieces cut from me

Practice room at 5 AM on Christmas Day

While everyone's asleep I'm learning what to say

"I spent my Christmas thinking only about you!"

The perfect line, the perfect smile, the perfect—

[Pre-Chorus - Building fast]

Lie lie lie but make it pretty

Cry cry cry but make it witty

Who am I when cameras aren't around?

Does she even make a sound?

Three, two, one, and—

[Chorus - Explosive, powerful]

Merry Merry Christmas, I'm your perfect dream tonight!

Glitter in my tears but you'll never see me cry

Dancing on the stage, I'm everything you need

The angel on your tree, the star you'll never reach!

Merry Merry Christmas, I'll be anything you want!

The girlfriend in your head, the fantasy you've got

But when the show is over and the lights go dim

I don't even know where I end and she begins!

[Verse 2 - Slower, darker, rhythmic]

Tick tick tick the clock strikes 12 but I'm not home

Click click click a million photos of me alone

My manager said "Post a selfie, keep them warm"

So I wrote "Spending Christmas with someone special!" — with my phone

The cake I'm eating comes from craft services backstage

The gift I'm holding is a prop that's CGI'd with—

[Pre-Chorus - More intense]

Fake fake fake but make it magic

Break break break but make it tragic

Santa isn't real and neither am I

But you don't want the truth so I'll just—

Here we go again!

[Chorus - Explosive]

Merry Merry Christmas, I'm your perfect dream tonight!

Glitter in my tears but you'll never see me cry

Dancing on the stage, I'm everything you need

The angel on your tree, the star you'll never reach!

Merry Merry Christmas, I'll be anything you want!

The girlfriend in your head, the fantasy you've got

But when the show is over and the lights go dim

I don't even know where I end and she begins!

[Bridge - Quiet, spoken, vulnerable]

...You know what's funny?

I used to love Christmas

The real kind

With ugly sweaters and burnt cookies and

Someone who knew my real name

(Pause)

But you don't want that girl, do you?

You want her

The perfect one

The one who doesn't exist

So fine

Let me give you what you paid for

[Build-up - Manic, accelerating]

Louder louder LOUDER make the music LOUDER

Brighter brighter BRIGHTER make the lights shine BRIGHTER

Faster faster FASTER make my heart beat FASTER

This is what you wanted right? RIGHT? RIGHT?!

[Final Chorus - Maximum intensity]

MERRY MERRY CHRISTMAS, I'M YOUR PERFECT LIE TONIGHT!

Drowning in the spotlight, sacrifice my life!

Laughing on the stage while I'm screaming underneath!

The idol that you made, the monster that you need!

MERRY MERRY CHRISTMAS, THIS IS ALL I'LL EVER BE!

A present wrapped in plastic for the world to see!

But somewhere deep inside, a little girl still waits

For a Christmas that's real... but I guess it's too late!

[Outro - Sudden quiet, whispered, cracking]

Merry Christmas, everyone

Thank you for supporting me this year

I love you all

(Silence)

...Does anyone love me?

(...the real me?)