Lyric

There’s no name for the person I was yesterday

Just drifting through, trying to fit in, in every single way

Every time I try to act "normal" and lean in

The absurdity just glows beneath my skin

Three different ways, three different masks I wear

Stuck to my face with a practiced, hollow stare

A showroom display, empty inside

A curated life where all my flaws hide

Mental

Dead and cold

Logging into this broken heart, truth be told

Mental

Flying high

Selecting "Strongest Mode" so I don't have to cry

Mental

Biting back

My self-esteem is expired, fading to black

Lost the real me, somewhere in the light

But I’ll force a smile, make it look alright

Talent, personality, just numbers in the void

Unmeasurable complexes, always annoyed

I keep collecting rulers, measuring my worth

Just to compare myself to everyone on Earth

"Hard work always pays off," so they say

Which means I’m a failure, just wasting my day

I can’t win, I’m not built for this, it’s plain to see

Just another opinion, drowning out me

No, no, no—

I’m tactless, yeah, I can’t read the room

I’m selfish, I thrive in the dark and the gloom

"I hate who I am," I’ve said it how many times?

If I can’t hit delete, I’ll embrace all my crimes

Mental

Out of control

Just a delicate liar, playing a role

Mental

Clouded mind

A saintly facade for the scumbag I find

Mental

Ripping through

Stitching myself up just to make it through

Sewing on "I’m fine," but the wound starts to bleed

I’m just hurting myself with the kindness I need

Chasing after a version of who I want to be

I finally realized what was missing in me

Thought I was empty, just a shell of a ghost

But looking in the glass, I’m the one I fear most

Waving to a stranger who lives behind the pane

Not just seeking salvation, I’m seeking the rain

Mental

Dead and cold

But I’m still breathing, and I’m taking hold

Mental

Crying out

My messy, ugly life, there isn't a doubt

Mental

Alive tonight

Borrowing emotions just to get the light

Mental

I believe

Even if the real me is something I can’t perceive

This voice is the only truth I’ve found

It’s not a lie

Not a lie

Not a lie

Right?