Lyric

I held my answer in my mouth

Until it lost its shape

The table stayed exactly still

So nobody had to change

Your voice moved through the kitchen

Like weather I had learned

I kept my hands around the glass

And let the silence burn

It costs less to let it pass

That is what I used to think

But every word I never said

Left something in the sink

I paid in quiet

For a peace I never owned

I kept the table steady

And went cold in my bones

I paid in quiet

For a room that never knew

How much of me went missing

Just to make it safe for you

My tongue learned how to vanish

Behind a careful smile

My teeth held back the bitter parts

And kept them there a while

There are marks nobody notices

When nothing loud gets said

The room remembers comfort

But I remember debt

I kept the peace and lost

The proof that I was there

You called the evening easy

I called it hard to bear

I paid in quiet

For a peace I never owned

I kept the table steady

And went cold in my bones

I paid in quiet

For a room that never knew

How much of me went missing

Just to make it safe for you

Was it really peace

If I had to disappear

Was the room really calm

If I could not breathe in here

I am tired of being gentle

With the parts that cut me down

Tired of making softness

Out of swallowing the sound

I paid in quiet

Now I know what it cost

Every word I buried

Was a piece of me I lost

I paid in quiet

But I can count it now

Not every calm room

Is worth staying silent about

The table is still standing

The light is almost gone

I leave one word unburied

And carry it alone