Lyric

I know better

I still want you

Maybe wanting you is the wrong choice

I still get to choose

I could give myself a hundred reasons

And every one of them might still be true

I know all the ways this could hurt me

I know what I would tell somebody else

There’s nothing innocent about my answer

Nothing careless in the way I feel

I’ve tried to want you a little less

But knowing better never changed what I want

So don’t mistake this for confusion

I see it clearer than I wish I did

Maybe I should want the easier answer

But I still want you instead

I know better, I still want you

Both of those can still be true

I don’t need to make this harmless

Just to let myself choose you

Maybe this is not the smart thing

Maybe smart is not enough

I can know exactly what it costs me

And still decide I want this love

I used to think the harder answer

Had to be the better one

Like wanting something made me weaker

If my head kept telling me to want less

But I’m not lost inside a feeling

I know exactly what I’m giving in to

I can feel the fear and want you anyway

And neither one makes the other less true

There’s a difference I kept missing

Between getting hurt and being wrong

I don’t have to call this perfect

To admit I want to stay this close

I know better, I still want you

Both of those can still be true

I don’t need to make this harmless

Just to let myself choose you

Maybe this is not the smart thing

Maybe smart is not enough

I can know exactly what it costs me

And still decide I want this love

Maybe I was asking the wrong question

Trying to prove what I should do

As if doubt could make the choice for me

As if wanting had to lose

Something can be less than perfect

And still be something I can choose

I can love you with my eyes wide open

And mean it even knowing what I do

I know better, I still choose you

Now I know those words can coexist

I won’t dress desire up as reason

I won’t pretend there is no risk

Maybe this is not the smart thing

Maybe someday I’ll think it was

But I’d rather own the love I wanted

Than call it wrong because it scares me

I could love you a little safer

I could keep a little more of me

I could want you without giving

This much room to what I feel

But if loving you gets complicated

I can live with knowing that is true

I know better

I still choose you

Not because I didn’t know better

Because I knew—and chose you