Lyric

Nobody noticed

That I stopped sleeping properly

Funny how easy it is

To disappear emotionally

While still showing up everywhere

I still answer texts with emojis

Still laugh at jokes at dinner tables

Still post pictures smiling

Like my world isn’t collapsing quietly

But lately

Everything feels heavier

Even getting out of bed

Feels like carrying heartbreak through concrete

And I wish someone would ask twice

When I say “I’m okay”

Cause honestly

That answer has been a lie for months

I mastered looking stable

While falling apart invisibly

I’m breaking apart without telling anyone

Turning pain into silence every night

Everybody sees the version of me

That learned how to survive politely

But inside

I’m exhausted from pretending

Exhausted from carrying memories alone

Exhausted from missing someone

Who probably stopped thinking about me already

And honestly

I don’t even know how to ask for help anymore

Oh-oh-oh

Some heartbreaks never become visible

Oh-oh-oh

They just slowly consume you quietly

The mirror says I still look normal

But my chest feels permanently underwater

I play music loud in the apartment

Just to interrupt my own thoughts

My friends think I’m “doing better”

Because I stopped talking about you

But silence isn’t healing

Sometimes it’s just surrender

And every night

Right before I fall asleep

Your name returns

Like my heart refuses to let reality win

I became too good at hiding pain

Now nobody notices when I’m drowning

I’m breaking apart without telling anyone

Smiling through conversations I barely survive

I learned how to make sadness look beautiful

How to turn loneliness into aesthetics online

But when the city goes quiet

And nobody’s around to distract me

I still collapse into memories

Still replay your goodbye like self-destruction

And maybe the saddest part is

I’d still answer if you called tonight

Maybe people like me

Don’t explode dramatically

Maybe we just fade slowly

While everybody assumes we’re strong

Maybe survival looks calm from the outside

Because nobody hears the screaming underneath

I’m breaking apart without telling anyone

Cause I don’t want to become “too much” for people

I don’t want pity

I don’t want worried faces

I just wanted love that stayed

Now every little thing feels temporary

Every connection feels fragile

And every version of happiness

Feels like something I almost had once

But tonight

I’m finally admitting it

Even if only inside this song

I’m not okay

I haven’t been okay

For a long time

Morning light slips through the curtains

The city wakes up again outside

And somehow

I still put on my shoes

Like my heart isn’t quietly breaking underneath me